Boys are really really dumb. Like they get you interested just so they can fuck you over. They start the conversation and start flirting and talking to you. And you get interested and start crushing. And then you hangout and talk some more.. And then they slowly stop everything until they just ignore you. They make you feel like the stupid one. They never really liked you, it’s all a game to them.. It’s bullshit. And guys wonder why us girls always have trust issues ha. Sorry rant over.
Might start doing this whole blog thing once again.. I’m bored and it’s summer (:
What I sent Marco…
I’m sorry:( I love you so much. And I just never want to lose you. I know one reason I’ve been like this, this week. It’s because I’m so scared I’m going to lose you when you leave. Or that we’re going to grow apart and you’ll not want to be with me anymore. That I was trying to distance myself. So that maybe it wouldn’t hurt as bad when you leave… I know I shouldn’t do that now because it’s just hurting the both of us. I’m sorry I’m just scared to lose the best thing that’s ever happened to me just like I lose everyone else I care about in my life.. They just usually leave me because they get tired of me. And I’m so used to that, that I just try to distance myself so I don’t get hurt again. I know you wouldn’t do that to me though. So I’m sorry that’s just how I am. I’m trying to break that habit. I really am because it’s hurting both of us. I’m just sorry for everything:( I really do love you so much more than you will ever know.. I hope that when you read this you’ll forgive me.. I love you.